2017 is winding down. Can you believe it? I feel like it just started but my concept of time is has always been a bit skewed. I thought it’d be fun to reflect on how my year went. A little introspection goes a long way.
Had to flip back to my goals list from January in my Bujo and see what was crossed off. Not much. So that was a little discouraging. Superficially, I would say that I’m exactly where I was this time last year. As a type A, goal getter type this is actually soul crushing.
How could this be? Is it even possible to be completely stagnant for 365 days? Ok. Completely is an exaggeration but I had only hit 20-25% of my goals. Clearly this is a mistake. Immediately I began to beat myself up. Yet again my MG was holding me back.
I called a friend because I needed someone to listen to my sad song. They listened. But there was no encore. The only response was “You’re crazy! You’ve come a long way and I’m proud of you”.
Why is it that others can see things about us that we can’t see ourselves? For some reason, I couldn’t see it. Actually I know the reason, I couldn’t see it because the “truth” (for me) was there on paper. I brushed those well intentioned but not consoling thoughts aside.
But what IF, they were right? So I went back to my Bujo. Maybe I missed something. I skipped passed the goals list and flipped to my monthly recaps and highlights. Month by month, I was filled with memories and reminder of my 2017. I may be a bit biased but my year was pretty lit.
- No MG related hospitalizations
- Came down off some of my MG medications
- Went on a girls trip with my besties to the ATL
- Started this blog
- Got to go to the beach
- Tried new things (like Aerial Yoga and Sushi)
- Went to HennyPalooza
- Endulged in two crab feasts
- Skin cleared up
- Slowly got back in the gym (a little)
This isn’t an all encompassing list but I think the summation shows something that my “goals” list didn’t show. I am coping with my MG.. I can talk about my illness without tearing up and feeling hopelessness or despair. I’m doing more. I’m laughing more. I’m learning to live life while honoring the fact that I do have MG. I’m starting to feel like ME again.
None of these things were on my radar last year. But they happened, just like my MG. As much as I hate to acknowledge this, life really isn’t something that you can plan and check off. I’ll have to keep this in mind when planning my “goals”.
Can’t say I’m sad to see 2017 go. She was by far a much kinder and gentler beast than 2016 for sure. I’m anxiously awaiting 2018 and praying that she brings a flourish and finesse to my life beyond my wildest dreams.
How was your 2017? What are you doing to set yourself up for success in the new year?