It's the most "wonderful time of the year". At least that's what the song says. Sorry Andy, I'd have to firmly disagree. Starting around Thanksgiving and lasting until post Valentines day, I tend to get a little down in the dumps. Since I'm in the middle of an episode, I thought it was as good as time as any to address dealing with holiday depression. Holiday depression isn't the same as chronic illness depression. As much as I'd love to blame my funk on my chronic illness, I can't. I[...]
Have you ever driven somewhere and it seems to always take longer to get somewhere than it does it get back? I feel like the opposite is true for me especially in terms of my chronic illness and healing journey. What’s even more astonishing to me is that I didnt even realize how far I had travelled away from my origin. It wasn’t until I started on my journey back that I began to notice that I was deep in the rabbit hole of depression. A Link I don’t think I’ll need to provide much[...]
Today I looked at myself in the mirror and liked what I saw. Not on a conceited tip like “damn I look good” but I don’t remember the last time that I’ve seen my reflection and felt positive vibes. Most of the time I see all the things that I dislike or that didn’t use to be. It’s a real hit to the self esteem. Having myasthenia gravis has without a doubt challenged me in so many ways, more ways than I thought possible. The transformation physically was severe but the mental and emoti[...]
For as long as I can remember people have told me that I’m “anti-social” or that I’m unapproachable. While I could try to attribute some of this to RBF (resting b!tch face), in all actuality, I’m just an introvert. When in new situations or circumstances, I’m the friend who is sitting back people watching rather than engaging in the moment. I pretty have that same swag on-line /with social media. It’s rare that I go a day without logging in to see what’s being posted but I sparin[...]